Sometimes I feel lost. Because something is missing. And I know the reason behind it. -My relationship with Allah is not going very well.
Oh Allah please forgive me.have mercy on me and.let me taste the sweetness of Imaan. I miss you so much dear God.. but ..... there's too much dunya attached to me. I hope the righteous husband you're giving me could bring me closer to you....
I just read Yasmin Mogahed's article on "The search for LOVE" and I realize something. I need to improve myself. She said, "To run to God is a movement of the heart. To run to God is to strive with everything He has given you. Running to God is movement. If you are passive, you are not moving. You are falling. Movement to God, running to God, is to face your heart towards Him in every motion of life. It is to face every goal, every intention, every End towards Him. He becomes the object of your striving. The means of your striving. The ultimate End of your striving. But you keep striving. You keep working to be the best mother you can. The best father. The best neighbor, the best student, daughter, son, employee.
This is the legacy of all our Prophets, peace be upon them all. Their bodies were in dunya. Striving. The Prophet (pbuh) was the best leader, the best father, the best husband, the best friend. His body was working hard in dunya. For a while. But his heart was always with Allah. His heart was already in Akhira (Hereafter), even while his body was still here—for a time. His heart was already Home. His heart saw through the illusions of this life. His limbs worked hard. So hard. He bled, and cried, and strived. His body stood until his feet cracked. His body was humiliated in Ta’if. His body lost sleep, and felt hunger, and thirst, and fever, and pain. And loss.
But his heart faced only Allah.
And with Allah there is no hunger, thirst, pain, or loss. His body had to strive in different directions; he was a father, a leader, a friend, a husband. But while his body had to strive in all those places, his heart faced only One. Only one direction.
His heart faced only God."
Oh Rasulallah... I'm falling in love with you for the 10th time. Salam alaika ya Rasulallah...
Yesterday after Maghrib prayer my husband recite a very beautiful duaa.. I've never heard it before. The duaa is full of hope and repentence. We are so weak, so dirty and we only have Allah to ask for everything! The duaa is so touching.. I feel like crying! :( I thank Allah for giving me a good husband and I hope I can be a good wife to him in this dunya and akhirah... Thank you Allah. I hope to see you soon in the highest rank of Jannah with my handsome husband =D
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